In January 2015, I flew to Chicago to record the audio version of my book The Unveiled Wife: Embracing intimacy with God and your husband. My nerves were shaken up! I had never done anything like this before.
After I toured the studio and met the sound technician that would be helping me along, I sat down in the booth where I would read through my book.
Being 7 months pregnant, I grabbed a pillow and tried to make myself as comfortable as I could, knowing I would be in that position for hours. I looked up and saw the cover of my book lit up on an iPad. My heart felt a rush of excitement to know that my story would be released soon.
A large microphone hovered above me, intimidating me. I wish I could close my eyes like I have seen singers do and envision myself reading on a beach somewhere, but I couldn’t. I had to keep my eyes open to read.
The task of reading my entire book in less than two days was daunting. I am not a fast reader. My mind raced with so many insecurities and I doubted my ability to do it. But I had to do it. This was a very intimate project. I could not imagine any other voice reading my story, especially because I share such vulnerable details about my sex life as a married woman. I had to be the one to read it.
I took a deep breath, placed a pair of headphones on and then began the process of recording.
It felt like I had to stop on every sentence. To take a breath, to correct the pronunciation of each word, to control my tone. There was so much to remember. The voice on the other end of the headphones coached me through it, encouraged me through it and reminded me of why I was doing it.
My worst fear with this project was that I wouldn’t be able to speak as long as it would take to record the entire book. I am an introvert who loves to communicate through writing. I don’t talk very much. I do not use my voice very much. Anxiety filled my mind about losing my voice.
While recording, there were several times my worst fear seemed to be happening. My voice felt like it was cracking. However, it wasn’t from overuse, rather it was from the emotions aroused while reading my story. My words stirred up flashbacks and each point of trauma brought with it a wave of emotions.
I tried to hold it back as much as I could.
Then, after 2 full days of recording, I turned the last page of my book! I did it! The process of recording my book was physically and emotionally challenging, but I did it!
I did it for you! For anyone who would need to listen to this book.
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Thank you to all who have supported me through the process of writing and recording my book. I appreciate your encouragement and making it possible to be able to share with thousands of women how God’s love story is reflected through marriage.